Cosmo gal vs. Bible girl

Trendy magazine always let you know what do readers want to read. So, what do North America women want to know today? From cosmo, I found...
-"Flirty ways to use fragrance"
-"Special touches that bring you two closer"
-"12 shocking sex facts: jaw-dropping bedroom discoveries and what they mean for you"
- "3 kinds of sex guys crave"
-"Fab Abs in 14 days: Detox diet tips"
-"How to feel great in a bikini"
-"Things smart girls never tell"
-"Jessica Biel: You'll wish you could hang with her"
In sum, modern women wanna be sexy, attractive, adorable, skinny & smart. Anyone still wanna be pure and submissive, just like the bible teaches us?

Less than 3 weeks from going back to my homeland

So excited about...
a)Gonna live in Jen's house with ceci. Guess we will have lots of fun with gals' talk, shoppings, listening to sk and etc.
b) Seeing my cousins, grandparents and friendz again.
c) shopping shopping shopping.
d) Taiwan trip with Jen.
e) Singapore trip with D.
Yet, also nervous/worry about
a) Gaining weight.
b) I do not expect that I will miss D. If I do, it will be rough. So, I hope dat I will not. You know, it's hard to enjoy my trip when you miss someone badly.
c) Money.
d) Friends might not be free to hang out w/ me. But I'm cool with solo shopping anyways.
e) Not be able to catch up with my cousins or friendz coz HK ppl are 24/7 busy.

Safety Net

Every year, during these few days before my birthday, I will feel upset. Becoz according to last few years, D would never be able to come up with something to do with me and to buy for me. And I'm so sure that this year will not be an exception. Though we have been going out for quite a long while, I should accept the fact that he is a boring and zero-surprise bf. Yet, I am still not capable to do so (but I've already coped with Valentine's day & some Christmas and anniverseries). Since he is not coming up with a plan for me, so I spend my birthdays with my friendz and family every year.
Like many other gals, I once saw D as my safety net. I felt like drowning, losing myself. So then, I actually quitted the relationship. And after awhile, I gave some faith and we made up. But until now, I cannot count on D as much as my trust w/ my family and friendz. May be they are just too amazing that D cannot even compare with. ha. They are so not the same. May be it's my attitude towards them. Even family and friendz are not able to do something for me on my birthday, I'm fine with all that. But, I can't get over with no-plan-n'-gift bf. I have to admit that I have way more trust in my family & friendz that in D. Becoz, they are always my NO.1 safety net. You dun wonder if the safety net is safety or not before diving in.

No girl gets married. Only women do.

This is the first time that my relatives and parents ask me about when am I going to get married (in serious tone). I always talk about and think about getting married with D. But when ppl really come up with that question, I was kinda shocked. Then this question stays in my head and the reality check begins:
a) How is it possible to live with a person whom I only know for 3 years for the rest of my life? I cannot imagine how can I live with ppl whose last name is not Leung. If I am not going to get married and my parents die, I will move in with my sister. And then I will spend my entire life with her. This will be what I have been thinking of. I'm sure I won't move out by myself.
b) Am I going to be a housewife? Isn't life will be terrible when you have to do hosuework everyday even though you're upset, moody, when period visits or you don't like to do it?
c) Can I live with a man? You know, man can be a scary thing. They like scratching their heads and other body parts; some of them like to be topless around the house; they can stay in front of the tv without saying a word all day; and the most terrible one is that they never satisfy with their wives!!
d) Will I still be myself? You know, marriage changes your name and it changes your life!
And I have many more questions.
Anyways. Marriage is still not going to happen to me soon yet. Let me grow up first. One thing and then another, right? But I think I will take pretty long to be grown up.

Catching up

I feel like I'm living in a fairy tale now. Everything goes so well... my new apartment, family time, new job, friendz, money, love etc. And I'm kinda away from reality now. I easily lost my temper or getting pissed. Moreover, I'm losing my "go, karen, go". I'm so lay back and lazy. And like to hide myself rather than seeing ppl.
Plus, my Christian life is disappointing. I guess I'm too comfortable w/ this warmy surrounding now, so I'm kinda not willing to bring up the heat and move up. I haven't read His word for quite awhile, and didn't have meditation for year. I'm bad.
However, God picks me up by the encouragement & compliments from brothers and sisters have given me. They told me how my spiritual life inspire them by cards & emails. And I felt shame of myself becoz my spiritual life is growing rapidly slow. Yet, I will catch up with the reality and spirituality : )

2 days in Tobermory

9 of us spent an awesome weekend in Tobermory. We had hiking, bbq, sight seeing, sun tanning... in sum, FUN. We were lying on the soft and golden sand under the edgeless blue sky and talked about all kinds of silly and random topics. We also made up foolish games and everyone looks like an idot. What can be better than that? ha.
First day after this trip, I was kinda upset about coming back to reality. Until I watched nba with D and had ice cream together at night, I felt that reality isn't too bad. You know, when u r in the reality, then enjoy the reality; and when u r in vacation, so, enjoy the vacation. Happy is that simple.